Since the moment that we found that baby "B" had problems it was the beginning for us to understand that the days of us sharing with her presence, were counted. It was a matter of time for when it would happen. Few weeks ago we thought that that the baby was a boy (via ultrasounds). Every time an ultrasound occurred we had the opportunity to see her moving around and kicking back and forth with his sister and her brother. They had a lot of fun playing tag with each other inside mommy's womb, I would say.
Although we were prepared to know that the baby was not going to make it, it still doesn't prepare you for the moment when you hear it, that she has passed away.
Last Tuesday, we found that her heart rate was erratic and have slowed down significantly. Yesterday, she was no longer moving, and her heart rate was very slow. Today, the resident doctor came in early afternoon to perform a check, and could not see any heart movement anymore. Then she went outside to bring two doctors. They all came in, and after several minutes of observation the looked at us and told us that officially the baby was no longer alive...
We have given her the name that God already knew even before she was conceived. Her name is Lilia Ashlyn. The name was chosen because of its meaning:
- Lilia comes from Greek origin that means "My God is a vow"
- Ashlyn is from Gaelic origin that means "Dream"
If the baby would had been a boy, his name would been:
- Jace comes from Greek origin that means "Healer"
- Alberto is from Germanic origin that means "Noble and bright, or famous"
And now we know that Lilia is completely healed and perfect in heaven, and she gets to meet her sibling already there (Baby August). She must be know having lots of fun on God's lap, and I know that God is filling her life with an incredible love that has no limits or way to describe.
One day I get to see you and hug you my dear Lilia "Jacee".
Love you forever,
"Before I was born the LORD called me; from my birth he has made mention of my name."