God gave me you

Seven years ago today was when we found out that we were having triplets during the first ultrasound to see if there was a heartbeat. It was an amazing news to us, and we kept it a secret to surprise all of their grandparents. Little I knew what was going to happen in the following months, and the journey that we have to go through in life.

All Together

(Those we have held in our arms for a little while,
we hold in our hearts forever)

Finally I got the time to do the picture I wanted to do for a long time. I hope it shows how much I love all my children here and above.

Grieving a child loss is a journey that begins the day the children passes, and ends the day the parent joins them. From time to time God has placed other bereaved parents in my path, which have allow me to listen to their story and share mine, and give them hope in the middle of their unexpected storm; because I know how it feels. Some of them have held their pain too deep, for too long, or have been afraid to share it openly, because very few really understand it, many outsiders have never been in our "shoes". Soon you will find that sometimes people cry not because they are weak, but because they've been strong for too long.

What are grandchildren?

What are grandchildren? Extra children? Nope, grandchildren are like the new copies of your own children, they stretch the life of your children to the limits that love delights to reach. Children are the blessing, but grandchildren are the confirmation of the blessing, that's why they are so deeply loved by their grandparents.

Grandkids are the best joy for the aging, they are hope turned into reality. They receive the kisses that the children didn't get the chance to catch. They share the kisses that nobody else can give. When holding a grandchild it is like you are holding your child too. You get to hold the youth that slithers away each passing day. And you get to hold the true love that expects nothing but renders everything.

2015 Children Memorial Service

(This is an excerpt of what I shared during this year's Children Memorial Service. The audience were all the parents or family members of children at the same cemetery where my triplets rest.)

When you're experiencing the most terrible circumstances, and you hear that God is so big, the reality doesn't feel like that at all. The depth of the loss, and grief is so overwhelming that we can't see or sense the greatness of Him. Then all sudden I heard whispers from a song I heard days ago telling me "Earth has no sorrow that Heaven can't heal..."

On Your Sixth Birthday

When there are no words.

Six years have passed. Some days it feels like a long time ago but today it feels like it just happened and I reminisce again in those few days. I remember with clear and deep intensity those few hours I held you, my babies in my arms. You were still alive, while I silently cried your departure, constantly wiping the tears down on my face I cried to God for a miracle, I pleaded to be able to raise you and be your daddy.